Domesticated She

Domesticated she
broke free
seeking
no one's truth
only her own
throwing off shackles
quieting the drama
so real
so imagined
she is free
dreaming
loving
living
learning
afraid
unafraid
solid in her
love
for
her
love
waking, sleeping, back to the cycle
mastering she recalls
that which she
was created for
waking, sleeping,
living
breathing
joyously smiling
leaving behind
that which she knew
many times
a new day
two choices
the domesticated she
will choose
to be She or
be what
you've wanted
her to be

Blink

Half a Year

Half a year has past already

so fast without any warning

the chance wasted, just yearning

left to discerning what could of been

The remainder of the year still upon me

waiting indiscriminately, lingering in the

distance, a shallow refuge or time for learning

I do not know

Certain of only one thing I must tread this journey

with its unknowns, finding solace in my sanctuary

I sit and ponder that far away place where questions

do not exist and answers are irrelevant

a place where only my soul can take me

a place where the perfect day exists and I know it's truth

A place so powerful that to reveal it's true identity would be committing the most heinous

of treason to my very soul.

Her Poetic Heart

Through smoky mirrors and broken window panes lay a girl burnt of ash from those who's markings she bears, let alone her own learning to breathe, twisted and mangled, pain unimagined cripples her tearing back the sash of eyelids unveiled before her, crimson rains down around with fear that no one hears her cries, nor do they care. She knows their selfishness, she knows all to well their kind. They blame you instead.... she knows better. Staring back at herself, hiding from the tragedies of her life, she knows better, it is her, no one else. Voices beckoning, reason selecting choice of what she will become if anything at all. Motionless, chest barely rising, air begins to scarcen.....finally, she see's you kneeling before her. You know better, you can't blame no one else but you there man in the mirror. Come clean with you, own it as she has. Please stay, I need you she faintly hears you whisper in her ear. Heart's beating, eyes cast upward, mercy bestows love once more or will it be yet another illusion. Will it be the final marking by their kind...........

Dawn

Through the fog lifts the sun, evaporating the dew, birthing a new day, stepping out to discover
there was nothing to uncover, what is felt is still felt, no guilt will overtake her, choosing to breathe in
she inhales once again, only she is sure that the fog was no coincidence and holds to her truth

The Search

Quietly he watches saying not a word, observing, studying her

completely unaware

he closes his eyes for what seems only a second

overwrought with sensation he jerks them open again

feeling transparent, knowing she will see him if he continues

he flees, then stops......

a moment passes, a few

he turns and walks towards her

she glances up to see him blocking the sun from her eyes

then she smiles and every word he had ever imagined saying to her disappears

then without warning he says

if dreams come true and fairy tales exist

tell me how then is it you escaped and persist,

she laughs caught unaware of what her response should be

bending to one knee he stretches out his hand

towards hers

catching the surprise in her eyes he gently smiles

and says Don’t look away
Took me a long time to find you
Give me a chance, a moment to gaze
Out of breath and in a daze
She nods his way

Catharsis

Does he know when you cry, or why
things lost, trust gone, where do you belong
self astray betraying and frayed
searching within to the place you've been
not understanding, eyes not withstanding
the perception and denial
complacent........survival
what must we do to let it all go
fight back the tears, just say no
beating retrieval black and evil
binds you..........
gasping for air, he passes without care
and forgets the girl he once new
his first love never to return
broken, departed empty he yearns
seeking a lie to mask the shame
he goes on.........
she takes the blame

Shape To Form

Please stop and listen to the sound of collisions
Taking shape right where they are……………………….
I’m in no shape to form
Doesn’t stop me from forming, reloading my army
Won’t last, laying there beneath the stars
What’s real anymore, the look on your face last time I was in your embrace
about drug me through the door
On the ground just a noun shouting to take form
No regrets no re do’s
Temporary canaries in red canoes floating down
This imaginary road, no more I Love You’s
I guess I can be whatever I want now
As soon as I can put my feet back on the floor
Trying to remember how to shape this form

Red Heart String

I gave it to you, all I could
Sad I have to take it back
You deserve more than this
Red heart on a string
You meant everything, all that I could hold
In only a colander heart
You tried to hold it, never let it go
Until I gave you the green light
Now it’s empty, lost its color
Too many shades behind it
I knew better, couldn’t help myself
Gave you no reason to keep me
Tears roll down, on with your new life
I’m happy for you, at least she deserves
You for all I know
I wish you well, so long, ciao
Got my red heart on a string
To bury

Who We Were

I will give you back all the words I’ve taken
I know who you are
Who you are
Stuck in the distance behind the shards
I know who you are
Who you are
Lapse of judgment no glue can repair
The fragile heart where I left you stare
I know who you are, who you are
Breaking in with force I’ve tried it
Bound by sounds of Love
I know who you, you changed me
You changed me
Give me back the words all the words thank sank in
There not yours to keep anymore
Anymore
We aren’t who we were, we aren’t who we were.
Dad a da, dad a da, I don’t know us anymore